Oh, you guys! The past two days have been brutal! I cannot log in to my YouTube channel anymore. It’s partly my mistake. My YouTube account has been linked to a Google account. And I had no idea, nor have I been aware of it, that when you close you Google account, you will lose access to you YouTube account. Which totally fails! I have tried every option possible, been e-mailing back and forth, checked out YouTube/Google help pages, and I end up getting forced to open a new YouTube channel. Which totally sucks. Because I had over 1500 subscribers, and I had over 160 videos uploaded. So now, my old channel will stay up, but nothing can be done with it. Have you ever?

So right now, I have a new YouTube channel. And I guess I will just have to continue from there! Starting all over. It gives me a headache, but oh well, there is nothing I can do about it.  So here is my first video of my brand new channel.

So, now I am hoping that all my old subscribers will hear about this and re-subscribe to my new channel. I know, it’s so lame. Hopefull someday Google/YouTube will come up with a better solution, because thousands of other people are having the same problem. And it sucks! Oh well.

What I want to ask you is to subscribe to my new channel, please. Click here to check it out. I hope I will get my old subscribers back.

Ah, it has been a great weekend so far. Something that really kept my mind off of my break-up! My friend Gisela came to visit me for the weekend and whenever she’s here, most of the time, we go out to dinner (her treat) to this amazing Japanese restaurant called Sakura in Scheveningen. The food is just superb! Seriously. I felt like I was in heaven, for sure!

Wow, Madonna upgraded her BlackBerry 9000 to a BlackBerry 9700! Too bad me and her are no 9000 buddies anymore. Kinda sad, but understandable. You gotta get with the program, right Madge? Stay Bold!

A lifechanging turn of events happened. Stefan and I are no longer together. Yeah, it has been ended. It’s very painful and heartbreaking. I was sad. I still am very sad. He was the love of my life. And he’ll always have a special place in my heart. It will be hard to adjust to this and I am sad that it ended up like this.

But Stefan and I will remain friends. I don’t want to not have him in my life. I’ll always have loads of love for him. He was the love of my life. We’ve had some joyeus moments, some sad moments, and I will cherish all memories I’ve had with Stefan.

So where do I go from here? I don’t know. It will take some time to cope with this. I have been crying the whole day. Such a sad day it was. But eventually I’ll be fine. Thanks to all comments on Facebook and YouTube. Really appreciate it!

I have more I wanna say, but I will keep that from some other time. Just check out the video and see me sobbing.

So, yesterday I went out and about with the folks to a place called Middelburg and Renesse, which is in the south of Holland. The weather was nice and sunny! Loved it, it was a nice and sort of a productive day, sitting in the car for hours and walking around!

Thanks to Walter for this awesome video response!! Really means alot to me to hear positive feedback. It’s time for a change, quit smoking, eat healthy and getting fit again!!

Be sure to check out Walter’s channel and click the yellow subscribe button!! Yes, this is an order!

This morning I had to go to the hospital after my therapy session to have some of my blood tested. I have been laying awake the whole night, not looking forward to it. But in the end it wasn’t that bad after all. Can’t believe I got all nervous about it. It was painless! How tough am I?

Diarrhea. Nuff said!

Another vloggie! If you check my channel alot you notice I don’t post all my vlogs on my blog. Should I post it all? Anyway, here is my new vlog. I will receive a gift soon. I have a feeling on what it might be, but I don’t wanna be wrong and get all excited for nothing.

Also I quit smoking, you guys. Today is my fifth day of non smoking! So far so good. Hope I will stick to it. Imagine the money I will safe each month. A lot!

I also have a new vlog intro, which I will use from now on. I don’t know for how long, because the previous random reversed Madonna tunes didn’t last long either, ha! How do you like the new blingy intro? Let me know!

… Not my pussy and not my crack! Dirty minded people! My back, shoulder and neck is hurting, again, and I  can barely move. Has anyone ever had back and shoulder pains? Like you can’t turn your neck to the left or to the right. It’s very, very uncomfortable!